here are the pics of my kukup trip....

the surrounding of the place....
kelong n more kelong....

our first day of lunch


the preparation of BB GUNS


slacking at the foyer


in the mid of reloading


POP POP and some stuff which din
see in sg for some times.....


BEHOLD THE SUPER CONCENTRATED SMOKE BALL




our tea break.... the fry banana
(dun look nice but is taste gd!)


the prawn cracker


aft dinner..... WATER WAR!

(the outdoor gang)


(the indoor gang)


the outdoor gang
(alrdy in the mid of playing and free
washing of floor :X)


the indoor gang
(in the preparation of sabo the out
door gang when the door is going to open
as they plan)


punishment time!
(tom is the only one who is being dry...
so is time for some punishment)


aft war


video of water war




after water war... time for some firework time

this was the only one i found it nice (nt set by us)



(double click it to see more.... mostly all abt firework.... n gt a few of second day video)

aft a nite of crazy activities.... all look shag......




finally a grp photo before we finished our trip...

heh heh... back from kukup trip.... that place was nt tat bad aft all.... over there i in fact found some stuff which cannot be found at sg anymore n we all enjoy playing with it... especially mari.... who was so excited when he saw those toy guns.... he eventually later used those n go find some target to shoot but later on.... almost all start to get their hands on the guns n start playing with it... n some even look like a terrorist... some also went to play with the bubble balloon... which was quite hard to find in sg..... but till the end i still unable to blow till the target i wnt.... but it was fun.... in the afternoon the gang at the living room decided to watch the dvds which they bought from a dvd seller while we were on the way back to our chalet after our lunch... majority were the ghost related one... but ended up i fell asleep in the mid of the show (hk ghost program) as it was nt scary.... all were just talking n sharing among the host n guests... so i just decided to go back to my room n sleep... till tom came woke me up for tea break.... n after the tea break... we decided to watch another movie (ice n fire dragon) tat was the clearest dvd tat we gt BUT the dragon looks like a stingray to us....

at kukup we also manage to found some explosives like 'pop pop' which was alrdy ban in singapore alrdy... we bought some back to play.... n with some other cracker back too.... but regardless wat... in the mid of playing it... we will nv forget the part where mari decided to those the cracker into the bottle... n fell down while trying to run into the foyer... those at the foyer saw this laughed quite hard.... cos we decided to those those lit explosive into the bottle... but regardless wat... it was still dangerous which lead to mari fell while running back... right after the tea break.... we went back for more dvd again... this time round is the movie (sex drive) quite funny... even though the scene quality was nt tat gd... but at least we can watch this movie till the end... tat movie we watch till halfway n went for the dinner.... just right after the movie.... n we were abt to go out to play with the fire cracker.... water just splashed into the living room... n the nxt moment we realised we were alittle wet.... n this lead to the water war which all did not play for a long long time.... even though we played quite happy.... but there was a small incident which almost spoilt our fun.... but lucky it was being solved... n we get back to our game....

after the water war... is time for our long waited firework time.... in m'sia firework/fire cracker can be bought easily and to most of us this is a new thing to play with... the setting off of the fire cracker is fun.... but at the same time it is also quite dangerous as when we lighted up a fire cracker.... by right it shld be firing into the sky but.... it did not fire into the sky immediately... it created some fire sparks... n those fire sparks eventually fly to our side n the next moment we knew were we alrdy run back into the hse n only came out when it started to fire into the sky.... the fireworks were nice n fun... but all these lasted for half n hr and RM200 just gone like this....

after the water war n the fire work, we were all quite tired and sticky so we all decided to go back to have our bath then carry out our last activity of the day.... "ghost movie session" after all had their bathing.... all were more or less refreshed.... and some were playing mahjong while some were watching the ghost movie... but to our disappointment... when the movie was just abt to go into the story.... the screen started to freeze... we tried on the 3 ghost movie... but ended up all were the same.... so in the end we gt no choice but to watch the local channel..... but lucky.... the midnite movie was a ghost movie.... so we decided to watch this since this is the only movie we can watch.... some went back to the room to get some blankets as it was getting quite cold.... so some were sitting on the sofa with the blankets or some were lying down on the floor with the pillows n blankets..... but after 5 mins all fell asleep together.... when i woke up i discovered tat we all missed out the main story.... so there no pt for us to watch so all decided to go back to their respective room to have a gd sleep......

well the nxt day i woke up at 8am... din really sleep well as the air con was very cold.... but i was just too lazy to adjust the temperature.... so decided to just go wash up myself..... n wanted to go for a morning walk..... to my surprised i was one of the few tat woke up early.... (andy n michael in fact woke up more early than me) i just step out of the hse and the chalet staff came to ask me to take our breakfast... so no choice but to wake them up.... aft my first round of morning call.... only half manage to wake up while the rest still sleeping till the second round of morning call done by magnum which was like army style.... after arnd an hr everyone was then wake up n had their breakfast...... aft the breakfast some went to pack their stuff n some decided to carry on watching the 'hk ghost program' just as the best part is here.... the staff came to inform us regarding our bus will be reaching at 11am to fetch us back to sg... so all gt no choice but to pack up n went out to the market to buy some of the local snacks back to eat.... so we went back right after our lunch and reach sg arnd 1330....

this was my third overseas trip with my friends.... even if this one was quite short but i still enjoyed it...... hope more of this kind of trip will come over.... ^^


(photos will be upload other day as some was nt with me so i'm still in the middle of waiting to receive the photos)

time flies.... now is alrdy dec.... n tml i'm going to kukup with them... quite looking forward to it.... last 3 wks quite a lot of stuff happened... first is.... my friend edward had already move on to his nxt stage of life.... he gt married on the 15 of nov and just last wk he also had a chinese wedding...

the other time a colleague of mine who know tarrot cards in fact help me to take a look on my love life.... n it turned out tat i still the one who i now liked was still him... i'm quite puzzled... as the tarrot card really quite acturate as from the card she can alrdy tell me his curent situation and it was all so true.... but i sometime i really doubt wat my heart is thinking.... but regardless wat i know tat there is nth possible for me n him.... friends is wat both of us can be....

a mth nv update the blog... actually got quite alot of stuff to write... but now alrdy forgot wat i actually intend to write.... oh well now 2008 left arnd 3wk plus n 2009 will be here le..... so let's look forward to the new yr n hope gd stuff will be here soon....

manage to find some free time out to update blog alittle..... gt too much stuff i wanna write ... first was last fri i gt food poisoning due to the mac breakfast which later also trigger the fever.... whole wkend is like a diet wk for me.... no mood to eat stuff even seeing my favourite food i also dun feel like eating it.... last sun the first mth of war is fun as my faction was against 16 faction ppl.... 120 mins filled with action... long time nv have this kind of war alrdy, so let's just hope tat this war will last for a mth....

yest nite went to have a steamboat with joe, shane n the gang.... from initial 7 ppl become 13 ppl coming for the steamboat.... quite cramp but quite fun to eat as a grp... but the best thing happended during the steamboat is a auntie did not notice there was a door at the entrance(was a glass door) but she go bang against it.... in my heart i was thinking.. thank god tat i din sat at the place which i sat at the other time... if nt i sure gonna laugh out loud... and right aft the dinner we went to the secret garden which is at waterloo street... the other time they were saying on going to that place for supper but in the end it changed to the hans.... i order their relax tea.... n aft drinking it, it really make me feel so relax..... tat place is quite cosy n cooling... aft a long day of work, go there for a dinner or have a cup of tea will be the best relaxation.....

n today... finish the work which i suppose to handle.... now can slack till the end of the day... yipeee!!!! this wkend is gonna be another happening one to me... =D sooooo looking forward to it....

a boring n tiring monday.... 5 hrs of sleep is really nt enough for me... especially last nite griffon spawn so late.... ended up it spawned at 150am which i was about to sleep..... quite a number of stuff happened during the wkend... first was the a last min bbq on fri which i only found out on the thurs nite.... n when on fri wanted to find out on the time n the location.... 3 person pointing arrow on each other which i dunno who to ask.... but aft my dinner i then received a sms from them on the location n the time.... n lucky gt jason who was my chauffeur for the nite =D... tat nite we met shane, weihong, jerry,DB, magum uncle and mari at the petrol station before we went to the the bbq place to meet tom n peru, when all alrdy parked their cars n was about to head to the bbq pit.... all stop at magum's car as he was asking them regarding the coupon thing..... initially all do not want to put but ended up all decided to went back to their cars n put coupons prevent from getting a white ticket....

tat nite me n jason left arnd 1240 as he need to work at the nxt day while i also need to get home too.... initially still wanna camp for the griffon but ended up got KO at the moment i was on my bed... n to my surprise, magum said the griffon no need to camp n it will spawn at 6am at the bbq... n the griffon did really spawn at 6am which it was the second/third time that he actually guess the correct time of the griffon will spawn.... (looks like can ask him for some 4D numbers n go buy =X)

just finished watching a spanish movie call "REC" a zombie movie... nt tat scary but the camera view was the one tat make me feel sick.... very soon there will be another movie call "Quarantine" it was a remake of REC, dunno how will it be...

sometimes i really wonder does love really make a person blind from seeing their love ones bad points? all these while i keep on hearing bad stuff abt him.... but i choose to close my ears.... now i alrdy put down my feelings for him and when i hear ppl say stuff bad about him i really wonder wat makes me decided to like him and wat makes him seems to be so special tat i was unable to let go of him at tat point of time.... i wonder did i really choose nt to see or listen n believe all these or all these bad points was alrdy there and yet i'm still deceiving myself that all these dun exist on him at all.... but this matter means no longer impt to me as there is no reason for me to think this qns when i'm alrdy out of it... maybe this is just a lesson for me to learn... n hope i won't make the same mistake on another relationship.....

yawnZ.... a tiring wkend..... this wkend supposely to be a resting wk for me but dunno y still feeling very tired..... gt a 1/2 day leave on last fri... so i gt fri, sat, sun and mon for me to rest.... which is so gd.... but ended up i still feeling tired..... but anyway.... tml is pay day so i shld be happy.... cos i now left with $5..... as just now went for movie n dinner n supper with shane, magnum, marvin n mari.... the only girl again... we went to watch the high school musical 3.... nt too bad for me..... but the best thing is... our dear magnum uncle... slept in the middle of the movie... n snore.... nth need to much... or shld i say is i alrdy forgt wat i wanted to write.... but nvm i will remember them n update again...

one wk plus nv update blog le.... last wk was quite frustrated with myself as the so call of me wanted to give up on him but ended up it is still back.... it actually took me some time to really let go.... in fact letting go of the feelings is just to see u really want to do it anot.... i noe tat even if i now say i can let go for it or alrdy let go i noe it will still be back..... but i now decided not to think abt it.... i rather stay to be friends with him.... than to let him find out abt it and make this friendship fade....

oh well thank god i eventually get this clear after two days of emo.... if nt i really dunno how am i gonna survived for the rest of the days..... but lucky during the past few days gt some supper ongoing which allow me to cheer up more..... even though it leads to my mum nagging but i still find it worth it... and the best part is..... the secret of me went to bar and drink was found out by my mum~ but anyway.... she will find it sooner or later... so nvm.... and tat nite when she found out i went to the bar before... i drank at tom's bbq session like 1 hr before i reach home.... =P but tat nite get to see megan n blackie again~ long time nv see them le.... they really welcome me well lor... by licking my legs.... -.- n my legs n shorts were wet due to their licking... as usual tat nite blackie was emo again but this time round he was sick n running arnd the place with a singlet.... tat nite first time see megan so hungry.... she saw me eating a sausage.... and she start to look at my sausage before i start to eat.... even if i wnt to eat but a dog looking at u eating the food they want is super wierd.... but ended up i need to walk arnd the place in order to make it stop following my food.....

but before the bbq i went to my colleague's girl bday and finally get to see natalie~ long time nv see her le lor.... tat time see her which is like arnd 4 mths ago.... now she alrdy 13 mths old le... hair no more spiky.... really looks like a girl girl le.... but the funny thing is..... the fellow who always help us to repair my office aircon, eventually thought natalie was my daughter.... -.-
but when i saw her walk i also laugh.... cos the way she walk is very cute.... and nt forget tat she really love to take pictures.... when i took this picture with her... she keep on staring at the screen until i close my phone she then start to look for other stuff to play... the party i din stay long as after tat i went to the bbq at tom's hse




me n natalie

felt bored in office so decided to write a blog here....

yest during lunch time went to bugis and also at the same time go to the temple there to pray since all my friends say the lot over there is quite accurate so decided to go there to pray for one for myself.... so ended up wat i got was one gd n one bad.... as usual the bad is for my relationship.... so aft so long on wondering shld i take the right or the left side.... now only left one for me to move on.... the path is clear now.... and time for a pack up of thoughts.....

some ppl thought tat it is nt really impossible for a guy n a gal to only have pure friend relationship.... but it does... even though sometimes ppl mistaken me was dating a guy friend of mine.... but we are just purely friends.... nth much... maybe it is just once which i accidentally hurt this senior of mine.... i just treated him as a senior n as a friend... who will eventually expect him to confess his feeling to me... while i only treated him as my senior and my friend.... maybe tat period of time i was scare so i ran away from the problem... ended up more misunderstanding were make.... n lead to me and him were both troubled.... i know tat if only tat time i just reply him straight away all these problems will be gone.... but i was scared.... no one told me how to handle it... and i got no experience to handle it....

well wat was done had alrdy done... no point to keep on thinking if only i did tat in the past.... now we might not really contact with each other... as aft tat incident i kept my distance away from him and a yr later he alrdy graduated and i din see him anymore.... aft a yr he graduated he somehow contact me again.... but this time round i know how to avoid and prevent any misunderstood happened again.... peace is all i wnt...... at tat point of time i gt this thought of i would rather see myself getting hurt then seeing the ones arnd me to get hurts.... even though it had been yrs since tat incident past... but i know i still nt rdy for it.... even though i had feelings to a guy.... before i know wat i really wnt... i shall just focus on my work n my life... these problems won't just gone within a minutes... time will be the best medicine for it... looking forward to the new day is the only thing we can do to forget all our past..... even if the life lies ahead is tough but all we can do is only move forward and hoping tat we can overcome them n learn from it....

yest manage to clear off a major project... finally can get to go home on time... no more drag till 7 then go home.... i just hope tat these few days can maintain these.... if nt i surely gonna fall sick again..... and recently in office often got a urge of listen to all emo songs.... this particular song i knew it from a hk drama call driven of life (sui yue feng yun) this song is quite nice and sad....

here is how the lyrics goes:

我对你 这一生 哪个可比 我与你 差一些 永远一起 邂逅时间场地 似连场好戏 要自何页说起

爱太重 深呼吸 欠缺空气 爱太美 轻轻的 却载不起 爱情来到时候 似明媚天气 它走了 突然骤变雪落雨飞

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避 无非想放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲 前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

你太远 该怎么 说对不起 你太近 一转身 却已高飞 快乐也许太短 似场流星雨 一眨眼 就如幻爱怕又记起

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避 无非想放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲 前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避无非要放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

我情愿我狠心憎你 我还在记忆中找你

even when a couple get together, they will still feel the distance between them... when the love is gone... it is always hard for them to put it down and becos of this love will eventually leads to hate... is it always true tat when a relationship end a couple can never be friends? and must relationship only have one person give in all they had, while the other one dun... from wat i can see now is tat love always make ppl blind... blind from seeing the problem in their relationship, blind from the problems which their love ones make, deaf from ppl saying bad stuff abt ur love one.... it is always the third party who can see it clearly... while me... i can give my friends advice on it... but i'm always blind when i start to have feelings for a guy..... i really wonder when can i really get clear of wat i want, wat i going through and awake of wat i was doing...

just now even went to eat steamboat with joe.... damn full lor... but we din manage to finish the food... cos is really too much le.... n tat ma la soup... is really spicy lor.... cannot take tat soup...

tat day i just had the thought of putting my feelings to tat friend of mine down..... the nxt day.... he started to step into my life again... must i really always gonna play a fool by them like this.... when i dun want to give up on them they look so distant away from me.... when i give up on them, they start to get near to me. maybe i shld go to the temple at si ma road to ask for my relationship.... this is really getting to nowhere.... tat time at hong kong i went to huang da xian temple to ask.... n it told me tat i will find my one at the second half of 2007... i dunno did i really found one anot... sigh this stuff always so ma fan one.....

btw i just found another song from the web which i find it quite nice.... quite an old song.... but this song lyrics is alittle erm... eh.... (dunno how to describe) maybe after u all listen it then tell me how do u all think ba... =D

these few days was quite stuck with this song (手放开) which i update on my blog.....

the lyrics in fact make sense to me on this relationship stuff.... what the point of holding something which does not belongs to you and making people around you getting hurt from it....

letting go... it may be a correct thing to do... but also not always right... but as long as i try my best during the process at least i can tell myself tat i alrdy give in my best le... no matter wat's the result it is... i won't regret...

for this time round i decided not to say out as i really dunno how to do or say out to him at all... further more ppl alrdy in a gd relationship... so wat's the point for me to go spoilt it.... i would rather stay with this friendship than spoilt this with my confession to him.... this way it might be a gd way for me, him n his gf...

if i'm going to sacrifice the things which i alrdy have in order to get something that which will never belong to me.... i will think twice before i do it... it will always be wise for all to think twice before doing anything as the price for it may be heavy....

at least for now i did sort out my feelings during the wkend while listening to this song.... (tat's one gd thing which i done =P)

time to get back to my stuff... i will update more once i gt my free time as quite a lot of stuff happened during the wkend....

hmm... today gt quite alot of surprises... cos today got special guests came to see my blog wor... in the past one esp (ivan) sometime come in see see.... but today joe jason n xiao ping gai came to see wor... nan de nan de.... well today alrdy try my best nt to get emo after tat bad incident... but at the same time i also recall back the past... it may be painful to think back but it also brought back the happy n sweet time in the past... memories also reminds me the mistake i made in the past.... mistake which i should learn from it.... n them... looking back... it is just as if they just pass-by but a pass-by which left me a memories which i can nv forget... it might be short... but at least it is a process of my life... at least i can remembered tat for once i really had my feelings on him before... it just tat we are nt destined to be together... n holding onto something does not belongs to me won't makes me happy.... just like these sentence which i heard from some places,

"love a person is nt to hold on him/her tightly until they lost their freedom.... is to let go when the time is right n let them go pursuit their happiness"
"letting go is also a form of love as you would rather to see him/her to be happy than holding onto it where it will lead to more ppl getting hurt"

my fate is still out there somewhere... waiting for me to go find him.... it is either he is right beside me n i dun even know abt it.... or i will just miss him as i'm just too slow to discover him....

life as a single may be alittle bored... but at least i still gt the freedom to do the stuff i want... even though arnd me some of my friends are attached.... but attached n single got their own pros n cons... is just a matter on how we see it... well i know wat i'm doing... so nth to worry abt it.... work n my personal life is wat i shld focus abt it.... maybe from there i can slowly let go of the stuff which dun belong to me at all...

oh well i shall just stop here n go do my stuff.... will update again when i'm free....

(signing off at 955pm 24/09)

a very bad day for me on yest....

first of all is the work... as usual being flood with last min work n unable to follow the schedule to complete my work.....

second of all was i gt quite trouble regarding my feelings to tat guy.... aft talking to joe n ivan.... thinking maybe i shld really just let go.... i alrdy know tat with this current situation i cannot get to anyway... sometimes in relationship is really hard to say who is right or wrong.... it is just the point tat the time is nt right.... some times it appear right in front of u without u realising tat it is alrdy there but u will only realise it when u alrdy gt something you had and it is alrdy too late to do anything.... let go is the best solution to prevent anymore ppl from getting hurt.... (to me i think tat i will rather be the one tat get hurted... rather than seeing him getting hurt n other ppl got hurt from it.... i may sound or see silly but this is me myself.... a girl who will always be the one who will take all the pain by herself....)

lastly.... i accidentally broke my dearest eln.... super sad la.... alrdy gt 2dr for it... n was abt to +5 it then something bad pop up... i wnted to put in booster but i dunno wth i was thinking i went to click the +5 n boom! my eln become a chip.... i stun at the screen for 5 sec then realise wat just happened.... sibey sad ah..... T^T... then now all i can do is just to ticket to iah n hope i can get it back..... last nite i alrdy gt a feeling tat something bad will happen... but i nv know tat it is the eln stuff.... now is in a super emo mood.....

just hope today will be a better day for me... T^T

wat a sleepy morning... yest just broke my OT record... 1030pm then went home... reached home alrdy 11pm n my dinner become my supper.... this wk is a damn busy wk for me.... need to print out tons of stuff n make all the admendments...

but during this wk i also gt this question which in my mind n i alrdy think abt it n even question myself abt it.... wat's my feeling to him anyway... is it love or infaturation? i know him for arnd half a yr to 9 mths like tat.... n also nt always meet him.... but dunno y sometimes he will just appeared in my dream n in my mind out from nowhere... he alrdy had a gf... having feelings on a attached guy... this is nt i want.... think i really must finda time to sort out my feelings on him... i dun want to make another wrong step in the relationship stuff again... just hope tat this time round i can manage to get it clear before i start to do any stuff stupid again...

haha... so happy.... in ge my faction manage to make a history in game as the first server to down the GHG in sge... but not only my faction... but also with another faction call anything..... a new map which we thought it is impossible for us to go... n now we can... weeeeeee..... this plan of taking down the ghg with anything actually started since sun.... n we tried during the mon.... but last thurs was gd... all of us were high when the hp down quite fast..... but this also lead to another 2 faction which were unhappy with us... n started to do smth funny.... well now just see how this mth in ge will changes... heehee quite looking forward to it in game.....

whereas in work.... just on thurs 1 designer left..... which leads to the workload increase till they find a replacement which i dunno when it will be..... further more tat designer is from philippines and she justed join us like for a mth like this n she left..... when all i can say tat with her arnd our workload actually increased as all the stuff she do actually were wrong n we need to take time to edit it before we can proceed to the nxt one.... n she can just disappeared from her workspace for more than half an hr.... wat she was doing during the half an hr.... no one actually knows.... but since she alrdy left this company... so i shall just forget abt it n focus on my work......

recently my workload increased quite alot due to my company big client gt plenty of restaurants for us to do the renovation works... n here i am.... being ask to come back on sat during my half day leave doing something which i did nt follow up at all.... n i din have a single clue on how the site are.... no one explaining to me on how it works... except for some sketches.....

i really dunno is this the type of project i really want to handle.... before tat while doing the office project... i actually quite happy and i like it.... but now ever since i start to do F&B projects.... i nt really happy at all... and i also can feel tat i can easily get frustrated.... i really dun like this change..... even though my manager told me if i gt some problem to coop with the work i can just tell her abt it... but how can i eventually say it out? all designers are pack with work... there's nth much can be done all i can do now is just REN~...... but i dunno how long can i ren..... this is really too stress...

haix.... think i better quickly clear off the work if nt i work at sat still need to work till so late... this is gonna be a super duper sad wkend for me.....

starting of the mth le... so fast is alrdy sept... n dec is here soon..... n it is almost half a yr since i started my work at this first company.... so far still ok la... just tat now handling some F&B projects... cannot really digest well.... but hope i can finish this asap so i can start to touch back to my office projects.... i alrdy start to miss them le T^T.....


during these period of time... got thought before of this... even though sometimes what i had in my dream did came true in my real life... but dream in the end still dream... no one will know when these dream will really come true... n who know do human really can forsee the future of our life.... but.... all these is still beyond our control... so is best to wake up ourself from dreams n take a close look at the reality... whether does tat dream comes true... it actually see whether u wanna give it a shot to try anot.... in the past i thinking to design... n i now really become a designer.... just tat dunno is this design path really wat i wanted in the past.... oh well i still young.... still got time to search for it.....

it was a long, tiring n enjoyable wk for me during my bday.....

last last fri was a day i will nv forget.... y? cos tat was my first drinking trip..... it was nt tat bad after all... got to taste n see all sort of drinks.... tat nite i drank 3 cups myself.... n some mouth of other drinks.... quite fun there... n nt forget the surprise i got from huixin they all on the presents.... but also from there i also get to see how scary ppl can act when they were drunk.... there was this fellow who was seriously drunk... n need his friend to support him to walk to the smoking room.... he just sat down on the floor immediately right when he reach the room... in fact arnd 1am like this.... quite a number of ppl were drunk.... but the best thing abt tat fellow... was... when he got out from the smoking room.... he straight away collapse at the table beside my grp... ended up need kelly's brother in-law to help to get him up... but after tat he did fell down a few more times as the way he walked is like a jelly fish.... n when i left the place.... i saw him sleeping outside the entrance.....

but well with this i at least get to take a look see how this place works.... after tat left me kion, kelly n jenny went back to chalet n slept all the way until 11am (i woke up at 845am to book the bbq pit ) then we went to the escape theme park.... but we went in for arnd 1-2 hrs like this then we gt out from there as the weather was so damn hot..... but at least this time round we get to ride the pirate ship which it was under maintenance at the other time when we came.... this was so much fun than the one we took at hk.....

well of cos at evening was my bday celebration BUT it rain at 5pm while i'm using the internet at the reception area.... but lucky the rain stop arnd 7 plus.... where some get to sit outside n we get to bbq the food outside..... i'm glad tat kelly (lecturer) manage to come as i asked all the lecturers which are closed to me.... but almost all caught up with their stuff n unable to come.... but one of the which i'm sad tat is... my sec sch classmates nt all were able to come... as some were arldy in overseas, some just booked out from their camp... oh well..... as long as they remember my bday i'm happy le....

i was quite tired to dead when i reached home first thing to do is to get my shower.... N OPEN PRESENTS! quite excited to open those presents... n the presents i got... are.... 3 necklace, a bag, a medal (21 yr old medal), perfume, mouse bank, a handbag, a special light blub, jewellery box, a notebook with vouchers (comic connection), john little vouchers n lots of ang baos......


well on the acutal of my bday.... first thing i go back office first thing i was asked to do was to continue my colleague's work as they will be submitting the projects to the client on fri.... so bo bian... need to rush.... but i was quite surprise tat my colleagues eventually gave me another set of presents... guess wat it is.... *drums rolling* a bracelet n a make up set...... but well.... after my acutal bday... nxt two day i was ot like hell.... cos need to complete all these by thurs..... so just chiong ah.....

counting down to the celebration..... a new stage of life is here.... quite looking forward to it... but at the same time deep inside myself know that there won't be much stuff change.... life still the same after nxt mon... but i today alrdy received two presents.... one was from my colleague.... is a toy.... how does it works i still have no idea yet... will explore it when i'm back in office on monday..... n the other one was a bag from my cousins.... from the design of the bag itself... i alrdy looks quite expensive... further more after tat i go to search for its website... this brand is somehow a BRANDED LOR..... quite shock when i see tat bag... surely cos a bomb for my cousins....

speaking of leave.... i discover smth lor... everytime when i wanted to take leave.... is either the wk before i take leave or days before i take leave... i sure need to ot like hell.... if i din take leave.. most of the time i can just run on the dot lor.... it just seems so wierd...

recently watch this movie red cliff... nt quite bad after all... the songs n the background music are nice.... n i am looking forward to the part 2 for the movie itself.... n i now here writing blog.... camping griffon n listening to the songs from the movie red cliff.... just feel so bored after knowing i alrdy got a wk plus din much vis... sigh... where are u griffon n snake~~~~ n my edc~~~ i left an edc for my musk to complete my set le..... T^T

ok time to go rest le if nt tml no energy to go site.....

hmm almost a mth since i update my blog.... cos bo bian... busy with work n nxt wk celebration stuff.... then first thing of all... i finally got a MC just last wk like this... n the fees for me to see the doc is almost 100 bucks.... but another half the of fees is becos of another medicine which does nt have anything to do with my cold.... sigh..... so fast hor... alrdy aug liao... my bday coming le muhahahahahhah.......

in this mth quite a lot of stuff happen... both in game n in work.... first i shall take abt the work... first thing... one of my colleague is leaving soon.... quite sad la.... he sat beside me then can somehow say he is my senior.. cos those stuff i dunno i ask him... even though some time he will do funny stuff... but lucky during my poly days alrdy got ppl like him always do funny stuff out from nowhere.... nxt is the sitting arrangement.... my side is the design department n account department which leads to only two male at our side n yest my big boss decided to tat the sales exchange side with the account so as to balance the male n female... but ended up... one of my sales colleagues he was mc today.... right after he moved over... n the best thing is... yest he workstation top hung cabinet... one of the door eventually fall due to the hinge was not properly screwed.... the door all along was ok but.... dunno y it just fall like this.... so ended up we all find tat place which he now sit is C U R S E D.........

in game... i finally got my own ELV muahahhaha damn happy lor... now is left chipping of it... hope i can either get 2dr or 3dr.... but the thing which i hate most is raid drop elite ziz n ELB but i was not there during the raid.... n i miss out like 400m... which i can eventually buy a edc recipe le.... arrrrrr.....

tat time there was this bbq held at qizhii's hse... he hse is big~ n so is his dog~ especially megan..... megan is a she.... even though her size looks like a he... h nt forget tat she is our coolboy's wife... but she betray her 'husband' over a hotdog... N the most happening thing is.... she can just steal a crabstick without us knowing... n peel off the plastic herself n start to eat.... however her scheme was spotted till jerry reported her while she was abt to start eating it.... however tat day... there was so another dog... which was xiao hei (male)... he was so much smaller than megan... but tat nite he was so emo... but tat nite we all enjoyed it much....

tml shall be the day where i start to hunt for my cake... XD so looking forward to eat it... yum yum..... need to get back to work le....

wee new faction had formed.... n it is called the X° faction.... this faction is a reformed from AM due to the scammer thing.... but mostly were all from recon well anyway... let's hope X° can stay like this....

even though we only have arnd 50 over ppl in faction... but it is gd to see tat 90% of the ppl were online n active for war.... this is a gd sign... even though for the war it din have much actions... but we can get 11 colony within half an hr is alrdy nt bad... especially with all ppl brought at least one diego/angie to build blades which help us to down the colony quite fast..... n there was also smth wrong with the hp itself... as now the hp was more than v2.4.... during 2.4 my hp with the family lvl n the colony buff at most 9k for my ele... but dunno y.... after we gt the colony buff again... my ele hp now become 11k... increase by 2k.... all were quite surprise n started to walk arnd n check each other hp... but well this 2.6 give us many problems anyway so let's just enjoy this gd hp buff n go for raid~

well there was something wierd as i had this dream... i nv dreamt of him for sometimes or i shld say i had nv see him ever since he graduated.... but dunno y last nite i out from no where dream of him... hmm so wierd

another one more mth to go.... looks like this mth is going to be a busy wk for me......

Ars Moriendi had finally disband on the Sunday morning..... lots of things happen in during the times in Ars Moriendi, the most memorable shld be the first faction in cavaraggio server to down GOL n got our hands on the ELNs... n also trying our best to get into the ice wizard tower to down novia... it has been a gd time in AM... even though ppl in there might have some conflict... but we still manage to stay together in the faction... but in the end becos of the scammer thing the faction need to be reform... sigh.... well let the past be the past ba... no use to keep on talking abt it.... it is time for us to move on n look forward to the nxt new faction... one wk of factionless, no more mass chatting with other faction mates but to wait until sunday when the new faction is formed....

time flies.... so fast alrdy half of 2008 alrdy pass.... n my 21th birthday is coming soon... WHEE.... 21 soon... it seems so fast to me... n huixin niece where is my kbox gathering~ we keep on saying go kbox ended up din go lor... we from start of our work say till now still din go.... sian one... now my kbox illness is getting worst... i really need kbox~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

opps going to time for me to go out for meeting... hee can't wait to see how the project site is now... will update the blog again once i had the time.... CYA

hmm got quite bored in office while waiting for my perspective to get render out..... so decided to update on blog....

now all seems so peaceful to me... but yest was just not my day... all of a sudden feel sick in office... n dun have any feel to eat at all which ended up i din eat a single thing (except for drinking a cup of hot milo to ease my tummy pain) from 9am all the way till 7pm like this.... a very gd diet for me.....

recently got quite obsess with this korean entertainment show call x-man... quite interesting n it is also an old show... dunno now does this show still ongoing anot.... this show is quite funny it nv fail to make me laugh out loud..... i will nv forget tat episode tat got this fellow call rimario.... whenever he appear i will sure laugh.... cos he is so gay, gross n funny.....

tml my sushi dinner is here muhahahahhahahah..... but i also heard tat there will be some changes to my game faction once again..hmm... dunno true anot... but it doesn't matter much to me anyway... cos when theres changes to it... all i can do i just to adapt to the changes.... all i need to care is to enjoy my training n doing raid to earn vis to get my hand on ZIZ n another BD for my upcoming expert bernelli..... besides buying weapon... i also need to earn vis to buy lvl 100 chips so as in case i can get my ELN for my chibi i got sufficient chip to chip for a +3dr armor to it...

btw those who know me in game n are wondering who is chibi..... chibi is actually my scout who carried a treasure chest wherever he goes.... no one eventually say tat my scout looks like KOG until my faction member CHAOS who spoke this up.. n everyone were like "ya... this scout does looks like kog, i just now thought kog spawn ended up is stale's scout standing there.... " blah blah blah... which ended up i decided to call my scout as CHIBI kog.... as all started to call my scout as CHIBI n whenever they need my scout to buff they will say in faction, "summon the chibi...." quite dotz for me as my scout so handsome... (even though i prefer my musk more) but how can he be kog wor.... kog so erm..... ugly... n my scout so handsome... well till the end i also call my scout as chibi....

besides my faction ppl see my scout as kog.... even other faction ppl also see my scout as kog.... so now my scout is famous as a chibi kog tat runs in town n other places.... which is gd as I OWN A KOG MUAHAHAHHAHAAHAHA..... tat real KOG only can come out in the underground cave every 3 1/2 hr so my KOG is better he can run to all places as he like.... hahahaha

so tat's all i wanted to write here.... maybe i shld post the picture of KOG n my scout n let u all see are they really tat similiar anot....

i now feeling so emo n sad.... really dunno wat to do.. so just wanna write here in blog to vent out my anger n complaints....

sometimes i just feel tat must i really need to be away.... so i can obtain the peace i want... i dun get the peace i want now at all.... they always love to misunderstand me... i just dunno y.... i just trying to explain to them.. n they will treat as me talking back rudely... i may be use explain to them too loud or wat... but after explaining to them twice n they still think the other way i more or less will feel frustrated n accidentally talk back to them a little loud... further more this thing happen nt once alrdy n i dun see any reason for me to keep on doing it...

they will nv listen to me.... they will nv willingly to hear wat i want to say..... just becos of tat day incident n they wanna treat me this way... be it lor... i alrdy tired of it.... i alrdy tired of admit wrong to stuff which i din do wrong at all... i really scare tat one day i might break down... i really hope this day will nv be here....

they may think tat they treat me fairly... but in fact they did not... n they will nv realise abt it at all ... if my only relaxation they also wanna take away so be it.... take it.... destroy it.... i just at most be a invisible person or be the puppet tat they want me to be....

wat a wk for me....

last wk went for a bbq dinner... food was quite nice... n it was quite enjoyable as we had a professional chef cook for us n those cook food was quite nice too.. yummy..... just tat we din manage to take a grp photo as some went home early n some came later....

at work... the whole wk i was helping my colleague to rush his projects dwgs n i myself also need to wait for tat supplier to bring the sample down which he delay for 2 days like this which it lead to delay of my work... but nvm... while helping my colleague to rush his dwgs i also learn something in the process....

yest was wan yun's birthday party.... quite quiet for we sec sch grp as only 5 ppl came while the rest were all in NS/overseas hol... so just hope tat on my birthday party they will all be here so we can have a gd gathering.....

there is always a thing which i dun understand IS... do i have to do everything? watever he command do i have to do? i just dun understand it.... watever he do in their eyes he is right... he is more impt... he can be excuse....

wth is this... they will nv care abt my feelings... they themself are wat they care... so as usual i'm the one tat left out... so just let me face the truth tat is i'm just a nobody at here... i shld just stop psychoing myself tat i'm one of them, they care for me too .... ... since u all dun care for my thoughts and u all wanna control my life... GO AHEAD .... just go control my life... n see wat will happen to me...

hmm long time nv write this blog alrdy.... now look back to my previous post.... it brought me quite alot of memories.. but all i can say now is they were all the past... is time for me to move on...

i now alrdy in the new stage of life n had join the working group for almost 3 mths so more or less had get used to this life...

now my life consists of work, ge, family n friends....work n ge alrdy took up most of my life as i go home first thing to do is ge.... further more some of my friends all not free... sigh.... wat a life i had for now...

i now wanna eat sushi la... yest they go eat without me lor (they got ask me to go... but i alrdy reached when they call me to go so i skip last nite sushi dinner) ... n i now craving for it... >.<

now for ge.. my first target is to expert my mains... musk left 10% to go le.... GAMBATTE~~~~~

next target is to get another expert ele which i dunno i will train anot as i now too lazy to train one stock ele from scratch... arrrrrr