Maybe i'm just nt tat capable as i thought after all.... i'm just nt tat determine after all.... all my effort went down to drain in just a 7hrs outing.... to speak the truth last nite i din expect tat he will turn out.... but when i heard tat he would be attending the dinner i was kinda surprise... and in my heart i'm somehow scare.... when i met him i really felt awkward... i really dunno how shld i to talk to him and on tat moment i was kinda confuse.... i nt sure was it becos i was just thinking too much or wat but i somehow felt tat a wall was there.... between the both of us. Ended up the whole night i dun really dare to look at him....

gosh.... i really had no idea how did i turns out to be this way.... this is really the first time tat i feel like tat... totally different from the past.... during this point of time i really dunno who shld i talk to.... i really dunno y do i still feeling like this after i knew how he feel towards me....

i really dunno how shld i move on from this.... but there's one thing for sure tat is my life is in a serious mess....