I dunno how to describe the feelings in my heart now.... knowing tat currently he is now together with his ex all i can say now i am feeling tat my heart really pains.... a guy who was in front of me but i did not able to grab hold on him...and also becos of i scare ended up i lost him... to speak the truth i now really dunno how shld i face this... only when i'm with friends i will then forget abt him.... when i'm at home all my sadness just pour out.... deep inside my heart i'm crying but i'm unable to shed a tears in front of anyone...

The memories of him just keep on flashing, our first meeting, funny stuffs which happened, choosing birthday present for him, when we facing low times, tat time when he encountered with an accident.... all these just never ending keep on playing in my mind.... how am i gonna get him out from my mind i dunno.... i also dun wanna think..... i'm just tired of these now i still gt more to stuff to face.... 2009 is just ain't my year... now is only july but there are another 5 more months to go.... hope for the rest of the 5 months just let me get over with this peacefully.... i really sick n tired for another wave to go....