finally wake up from all this..... maybe is only last nite i really can let this go... completely....
aft marlene's bday party... went to meet them at coffee nation for coffee.... but this time round sitting beside really make me feel wierd right after last wk's incident....
but maybe this way it really made me face this properly.... letting go of this really make me feel relieve.... but on the other hand i kinda worry that this tension will still be there or maybe not.... maybe i really need to find some time to talk this out to him but.... i really dunno how to say it out.... arrr dunno la... see how it goes... maybe days later i will then know how to make it clear to him?
let's just hope that i will be able to find the one soon..... and hope this will really give me a reminder of the lesson i had...n be friends like in the past..."
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
sometimes i really hate myself.... every time when i had the determination to do something but in the end i failed to do so.... Just like days ago when i was so confident that i already done so... but last night i realised that i'm not...
Last night after dinner we were still thinking where to go to chill as it was still quite early for us... so just when we were thinking of places to go to.... He popped out.... Same thing happened again and again.... all my hard work somehow seems to fail.... the only thing i can say to myself was.... let's take this as a test to me... But when i reached home last night the final result of it was.... I failed....
When we were at coffee nation... i know something happened in the group when i went to washroom... deep in my heart i wanna know what was it about... but my mind was asking me not to ask.... cause i know even if i asked... it will still not the thing which i wanted it to happen 2 month ago.... i would rather remain as it is....
aft we left coffee nation... we still wanna go to some place to chill more so we went to marina barrage... the view at there was nice.... night time with the building having their lights on.... and it would be better if there was some wind.... but last night there was no wind and it was rather humid for us... even so... marina barrage is now the another place for us to chill....
if only human brain is like a computer.... able to choose to delete files which you want.... and i think i will be happier....
(when i was writing this blog.... i felt the earthquake.... but at first i still thought i was having a headache... but moments later... started to see friends who stay near me saying they felt the earthquake..... looks like the mother nature is really very angry from the typhoon just days ago... then now earthquake.... does this means that the world is going to its end soon?
think this question will be a tough one which no one will be able to have an exact answer for it....)
Last night after dinner we were still thinking where to go to chill as it was still quite early for us... so just when we were thinking of places to go to.... He popped out.... Same thing happened again and again.... all my hard work somehow seems to fail.... the only thing i can say to myself was.... let's take this as a test to me... But when i reached home last night the final result of it was.... I failed....
When we were at coffee nation... i know something happened in the group when i went to washroom... deep in my heart i wanna know what was it about... but my mind was asking me not to ask.... cause i know even if i asked... it will still not the thing which i wanted it to happen 2 month ago.... i would rather remain as it is....
aft we left coffee nation... we still wanna go to some place to chill more so we went to marina barrage... the view at there was nice.... night time with the building having their lights on.... and it would be better if there was some wind.... but last night there was no wind and it was rather humid for us... even so... marina barrage is now the another place for us to chill....
if only human brain is like a computer.... able to choose to delete files which you want.... and i think i will be happier....
(when i was writing this blog.... i felt the earthquake.... but at first i still thought i was having a headache... but moments later... started to see friends who stay near me saying they felt the earthquake..... looks like the mother nature is really very angry from the typhoon just days ago... then now earthquake.... does this means that the world is going to its end soon?
think this question will be a tough one which no one will be able to have an exact answer for it....)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
long time nv feel so gd.... questions which troubled me wks ago had alrdy slowly solved.... maybe is becos tat i didn't see him for 3 wks... or maybe i really put it down already.... but all these i will never really know till i see him again.... i really hope i'm not just deceving myself and my friends when i told them tat i really place it down already....
just pray tat my small birthday wish will really comes true and bring me out from this completely.... Last fri aft the birthday dinner with huixin n gang at tanglin mall, we went to ion for awhile.... and aft tat we went back home from there.... on the way to the bus stop i actually saw shaowen when the last time i saw him was around 3 yrs ago.... In the past i was so keen on seeing him again but yrs had passed... and already let go of tat long time ago.... meeting him at this kind of situation is kinda wierd to me as he is my old classmate but i dunno whether he remembered you or not.... and is only aft tat i realise how god can actually play trick on you...
When you are so keen to get this thing... the god will never let you have it.... however at the time when you decided to give up on it... the god will let you have the chance to have it... Cherish is what we need to learn.... Learn to cherish the thing that we had in life.... dun wait till when we lost it then we start to regret why we did not cherish it when we had a chance.... by the time we had lost it, it will be already too late for us to go back.... Sometime when we cherish a thing.... we will lost another one in return... either way no one can be in a situation where they can always get wat they wnt.... in human.... no one is perfect... or i should say there is nth in life tat is perfect....
just pray tat my small birthday wish will really comes true and bring me out from this completely.... Last fri aft the birthday dinner with huixin n gang at tanglin mall, we went to ion for awhile.... and aft tat we went back home from there.... on the way to the bus stop i actually saw shaowen when the last time i saw him was around 3 yrs ago.... In the past i was so keen on seeing him again but yrs had passed... and already let go of tat long time ago.... meeting him at this kind of situation is kinda wierd to me as he is my old classmate but i dunno whether he remembered you or not.... and is only aft tat i realise how god can actually play trick on you...
When you are so keen to get this thing... the god will never let you have it.... however at the time when you decided to give up on it... the god will let you have the chance to have it... Cherish is what we need to learn.... Learn to cherish the thing that we had in life.... dun wait till when we lost it then we start to regret why we did not cherish it when we had a chance.... by the time we had lost it, it will be already too late for us to go back.... Sometime when we cherish a thing.... we will lost another one in return... either way no one can be in a situation where they can always get wat they wnt.... in human.... no one is perfect... or i should say there is nth in life tat is perfect....
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