yawnZ.... a tiring wkend..... this wkend supposely to be a resting wk for me but dunno y still feeling very tired..... gt a 1/2 day leave on last fri... so i gt fri, sat, sun and mon for me to rest.... which is so gd.... but ended up i still feeling tired..... but anyway.... tml is pay day so i shld be happy.... cos i now left with $5..... as just now went for movie n dinner n supper with shane, magnum, marvin n mari.... the only girl again... we went to watch the high school musical 3.... nt too bad for me..... but the best thing is... our dear magnum uncle... slept in the middle of the movie... n snore.... nth need to much... or shld i say is i alrdy forgt wat i wanted to write.... but nvm i will remember them n update again...

one wk plus nv update blog le.... last wk was quite frustrated with myself as the so call of me wanted to give up on him but ended up it is still back.... it actually took me some time to really let go.... in fact letting go of the feelings is just to see u really want to do it anot.... i noe tat even if i now say i can let go for it or alrdy let go i noe it will still be back..... but i now decided not to think abt it.... i rather stay to be friends with him.... than to let him find out abt it and make this friendship fade....

oh well thank god i eventually get this clear after two days of emo.... if nt i really dunno how am i gonna survived for the rest of the days..... but lucky during the past few days gt some supper ongoing which allow me to cheer up more..... even though it leads to my mum nagging but i still find it worth it... and the best part is..... the secret of me went to bar and drink was found out by my mum~ but anyway.... she will find it sooner or later... so nvm.... and tat nite when she found out i went to the bar before... i drank at tom's bbq session like 1 hr before i reach home.... =P but tat nite get to see megan n blackie again~ long time nv see them le.... they really welcome me well lor... by licking my legs.... -.- n my legs n shorts were wet due to their licking... as usual tat nite blackie was emo again but this time round he was sick n running arnd the place with a singlet.... tat nite first time see megan so hungry.... she saw me eating a sausage.... and she start to look at my sausage before i start to eat.... even if i wnt to eat but a dog looking at u eating the food they want is super wierd.... but ended up i need to walk arnd the place in order to make it stop following my food.....

but before the bbq i went to my colleague's girl bday and finally get to see natalie~ long time nv see her le lor.... tat time see her which is like arnd 4 mths ago.... now she alrdy 13 mths old le... hair no more spiky.... really looks like a girl girl le.... but the funny thing is..... the fellow who always help us to repair my office aircon, eventually thought natalie was my daughter.... -.-
but when i saw her walk i also laugh.... cos the way she walk is very cute.... and nt forget tat she really love to take pictures.... when i took this picture with her... she keep on staring at the screen until i close my phone she then start to look for other stuff to play... the party i din stay long as after tat i went to the bbq at tom's hse




me n natalie

felt bored in office so decided to write a blog here....

yest during lunch time went to bugis and also at the same time go to the temple there to pray since all my friends say the lot over there is quite accurate so decided to go there to pray for one for myself.... so ended up wat i got was one gd n one bad.... as usual the bad is for my relationship.... so aft so long on wondering shld i take the right or the left side.... now only left one for me to move on.... the path is clear now.... and time for a pack up of thoughts.....

some ppl thought tat it is nt really impossible for a guy n a gal to only have pure friend relationship.... but it does... even though sometimes ppl mistaken me was dating a guy friend of mine.... but we are just purely friends.... nth much... maybe it is just once which i accidentally hurt this senior of mine.... i just treated him as a senior n as a friend... who will eventually expect him to confess his feeling to me... while i only treated him as my senior and my friend.... maybe tat period of time i was scare so i ran away from the problem... ended up more misunderstanding were make.... n lead to me and him were both troubled.... i know tat if only tat time i just reply him straight away all these problems will be gone.... but i was scared.... no one told me how to handle it... and i got no experience to handle it....

well wat was done had alrdy done... no point to keep on thinking if only i did tat in the past.... now we might not really contact with each other... as aft tat incident i kept my distance away from him and a yr later he alrdy graduated and i din see him anymore.... aft a yr he graduated he somehow contact me again.... but this time round i know how to avoid and prevent any misunderstood happened again.... peace is all i wnt...... at tat point of time i gt this thought of i would rather see myself getting hurt then seeing the ones arnd me to get hurts.... even though it had been yrs since tat incident past... but i know i still nt rdy for it.... even though i had feelings to a guy.... before i know wat i really wnt... i shall just focus on my work n my life... these problems won't just gone within a minutes... time will be the best medicine for it... looking forward to the new day is the only thing we can do to forget all our past..... even if the life lies ahead is tough but all we can do is only move forward and hoping tat we can overcome them n learn from it....

yest manage to clear off a major project... finally can get to go home on time... no more drag till 7 then go home.... i just hope tat these few days can maintain these.... if nt i surely gonna fall sick again..... and recently in office often got a urge of listen to all emo songs.... this particular song i knew it from a hk drama call driven of life (sui yue feng yun) this song is quite nice and sad....

here is how the lyrics goes:

我对你 这一生 哪个可比 我与你 差一些 永远一起 邂逅时间场地 似连场好戏 要自何页说起

爱太重 深呼吸 欠缺空气 爱太美 轻轻的 却载不起 爱情来到时候 似明媚天气 它走了 突然骤变雪落雨飞

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避 无非想放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲 前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

你太远 该怎么 说对不起 你太近 一转身 却已高飞 快乐也许太短 似场流星雨 一眨眼 就如幻爱怕又记起

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避 无非想放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲 前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你 连遇上亦要躲避无非要放下你 还是挂念你 谁又会及我伤悲前事最怕有人提起 就算怎么伸尽手臂 我们亦有一些距离

我情愿我狠心憎你 我还在记忆中找你

even when a couple get together, they will still feel the distance between them... when the love is gone... it is always hard for them to put it down and becos of this love will eventually leads to hate... is it always true tat when a relationship end a couple can never be friends? and must relationship only have one person give in all they had, while the other one dun... from wat i can see now is tat love always make ppl blind... blind from seeing the problem in their relationship, blind from the problems which their love ones make, deaf from ppl saying bad stuff abt ur love one.... it is always the third party who can see it clearly... while me... i can give my friends advice on it... but i'm always blind when i start to have feelings for a guy..... i really wonder when can i really get clear of wat i want, wat i going through and awake of wat i was doing...

just now even went to eat steamboat with joe.... damn full lor... but we din manage to finish the food... cos is really too much le.... n tat ma la soup... is really spicy lor.... cannot take tat soup...

tat day i just had the thought of putting my feelings to tat friend of mine down..... the nxt day.... he started to step into my life again... must i really always gonna play a fool by them like this.... when i dun want to give up on them they look so distant away from me.... when i give up on them, they start to get near to me. maybe i shld go to the temple at si ma road to ask for my relationship.... this is really getting to nowhere.... tat time at hong kong i went to huang da xian temple to ask.... n it told me tat i will find my one at the second half of 2007... i dunno did i really found one anot... sigh this stuff always so ma fan one.....

btw i just found another song from the web which i find it quite nice.... quite an old song.... but this song lyrics is alittle erm... eh.... (dunno how to describe) maybe after u all listen it then tell me how do u all think ba... =D