sometimes i really wonder am i really too tom boy.... am i ugly.... am i really tat simple minded... and some other questions just stuck in my brain for so long and till now i really dunno where to go find the answer for it.... just now aft having the dinner at Ma mansion, I, iris, simon n thomas went to coffee nation... and out from nowhere a question of who is my Mr 'U' is appear again.... i dun remember since when they started to ask me this question.... but i only remember this happened when i just type this out in evony while i was listening to the song 'nobody'.

No matter who they guessed is the Mr 'U' is... i only can say is tat the 'U' is just still somewhere out there.... currently i'm just nt ready for any relationship yet.... at least for these two question i know the answer for it.... cos i'm still afraid of it.... as just now at coffee nation i can say my brain is really in a mess.... Why.... becos he came.... When i heard tat he was here i was surprised... Why... i dunno... but deep in my heart i know that i really place tat down.... just gt no idea how come i would have tat kind of thinking.... i just realised tat i dun mind talking to him via sms/msn but if want me talk to him face to face.... i'm alittle scare..... wierd right....

really dunno how to solve this.... months alrdy and yet i still have these kind of wierd action.... where is my determination of going back to the me before this happened.... am i really just gonna continue with this or i'm just gonna try harder to maintain the determination get these wierd action out.....

Today is the last day of my working at my current company.... i really wanna say thanks to all the colleagues who i worked with... they really teached me lots of stuff and I enjoyed working with them.....1.5yrs of happy and frustrated times in this company.... oh well this is just a part of my working experience anyway.... there might be some 舍不得 feeling... but for my life and future i had to move on....

tmr shall be the starting of my rotting days! time to slack n relax n recharge my energy before i start to work again.... at least hope that can really sort out my thoughts ba... but first thing is to really kick the habit of thinking about him.... almost 2 mths but i still can't help myself to think of him from time to time... i'm always curious how he is doing with he and his gf.... even when i msn him i always feel like asking abt how he and gf doing..... words are in my mouth or rather in my hand... but i just can't ask it out to him.... thoughts and questions abt him just keep on stacking up.... up till a height where i almost unable to reach for it....

i'm now left with 7 days plus to get rid of these thoughts and questions.... how am i gonna do it... i do not have an idea.... but i just hope that before i'm done with these.... another one please dun come first.... friends friends friends.... this is what i shld always remind myself before same mistake occurs again....

getting sleepy.... time for me to sign off here.... and shall resume my daily update on the blog....