sometimes i really wonder am i really too tom boy.... am i ugly.... am i really tat simple minded... and some other questions just stuck in my brain for so long and till now i really dunno where to go find the answer for it.... just now aft having the dinner at Ma mansion, I, iris, simon n thomas went to coffee nation... and out from nowhere a question of who is my Mr 'U' is appear again.... i dun remember since when they started to ask me this question.... but i only remember this happened when i just type this out in evony while i was listening to the song 'nobody'.

No matter who they guessed is the Mr 'U' is... i only can say is tat the 'U' is just still somewhere out there.... currently i'm just nt ready for any relationship yet.... at least for these two question i know the answer for it.... cos i'm still afraid of it.... as just now at coffee nation i can say my brain is really in a mess.... Why.... becos he came.... When i heard tat he was here i was surprised... Why... i dunno... but deep in my heart i know that i really place tat down.... just gt no idea how come i would have tat kind of thinking.... i just realised tat i dun mind talking to him via sms/msn but if want me talk to him face to face.... i'm alittle scare..... wierd right....

really dunno how to solve this.... months alrdy and yet i still have these kind of wierd action.... where is my determination of going back to the me before this happened.... am i really just gonna continue with this or i'm just gonna try harder to maintain the determination get these wierd action out.....