hey hey.... is now 2009 le.... is the starting of a brand new yr....... but to me is still the same... the reason for it... nth much had change anyway...... unable to do much stuff even if do wat i got back in return nth but scolding n neglected.....

must i always get control in the stuff i wanna do in my life?

listen to watever stuff they ask me to do,

watever stuff they say is the right thing and the stuff which i wanna say or do is wrong....

sometimes i really wonder is this how my life will goes till the point of my death, it maybe nt right to think these on the second day of cny but sometimes i just can't help to think these..... i try to let go but they will just keep on coming back to haunt me..... they are just forcing me to do the stuff which they dun like at all i know i have to fight for it but i really dunno abt it. To other ppl they think these happened just becos i'm the only daughter or the youngest child in the hse, they are caring for me.... but if u are in my shoe i doubt u will even think it this way.....

or maybe to them i'm just a maid to them anyway.....

just hope that for the rest of the 2009 i will be able survive it..... if nt i think the worst will be here soon.......