if for the nxt 20-30 yrs time... i'm gonna live with a fake mask... and with no respect... i will rather choose to end this... i'm currently living in a world... where no one wanted to understand me... care what i really wnt or even respect me. 23 yrs of life.... seems to be so long for me.... if u ask me is there any happy memories i can recall... i afraid nt... all i remember were i'm being left out... being control... or even having my respect being stepped on the floor by others... it is not as if i din try to get it... with each hope i try to get.... but they just disappeared... whether it is in studies, social life, family, work life... i'm just a failure in all...

even when i'm with a grp of my friends... i still feel the loneliness... it's like i'm just an extra over there... or maybe i am after all.... no matter how much i try... in the end it still the same... no one will bother to care wat i think or even wat i wnt... all i can see in front of the path is all darkness... maybe tat's the sign of my life coming to an end..