The happy memories between the both of us ended after that gathering but no matter how much memories between I and him there were in my heart but there were still some distance between us... our interest and life are just totally different from each other. Maybe it is hard to find someone who had the same interest and total same frequency as me but to find someone who really can understand me is a mission impossible. No matter how much i try to portrait my self in front of him, in the end it is just not the real me. It's me wearing a mask. Maybe i'm just not confident enough to let him see the real me or rather that i'm too use to face people with a mask. Every disappointment i get when knowing i won't be able to see him, the inferior feelings i had, what do i still expect anyway.
just attended Ashar's wedding and kinda happy for him able to have such a sweet wife who always support him and accompany him when he is rushing for projects and in the low while doing projects. He is the first classmate that i know who got married and attending his wedding... made we as his classmate abit hard to imagine a few yrs down later we will be getting married too... but that will be a long long way road down. Most of my class were current still having studies in university and it won't be fast for them to settle down. those who already started working are consider one step closer to it.... but its lack of the right timing for that one to appear. no matter what kind of plan that each made for their future, there will be some factor that will change it. No one will ever knows what kind of a factor would that be. it maybe a good but it maybe be a bad too.
But ain't this is how life work? No matter how much bad stuff or good stuff happened... we still had to carry on living... it is just how we gonna see this. Whereas for him... will try to get myself wake up from it and believe that stuff will work out in someway.....
