i really feel like jumping down from some building or just disappear from this world.... i really feel like i dun really need to exist in this world, i'm an extra... ... wat's the point for me to continue stay here... where all i got was sadness.... i'll never get things right.... i'm always the one who get left out... all those bad things... i'm always the one to get it first....

it's so frustrating.... i try to think of the positive side... but it just that things always turns out to be at the negative side.... watever i do... they will never believe me.... they always think is my fault... i just dun get it... is this the kind of trust i will get from them? i really wonder wat am i to them? am i a trash, or i'm just some body tat doesn't link to them at all....

in front of me they can say how gd they treat me... but to speak the truth... i can't really feel that.... i just want to get out of there as soon as i can.... i just want to prove it to them i'm not tat kind of person tat they think! they never understand how i feel.... and will neer know wat i want and wat i was thinking.... no matter how well they say they know me ..... i just dun feel tat way....

maybe i dun really belong to there... cos to everyone... i'm not impt at all... i'm no related to them at all... in front of them... i'm invisible.... how i wish tat one day i can just stay in my dream... and i can sleep forever and no need to wake up at all.....